Getting out of my way

A series of unfortunate events happened the past year. Strangely, I don’t regret what had happened or not happened. If, I were much younger, I would have panic and probably end up taking psychiatric drugs. But at the moment, I am feeling calm.

While I can’t change what’s outside of me, I can change myself. And I will let events roll naturally, so that I will get out of my way in trying too hard to make things happen – which usually would end up in frustration or disappointment, if I stand in my own way.

Hence away from the noise of events, all I see on the mirror is my reflection. When nothing happens, one tends to move with more haste. Strangely, or against common logic, a quiet calmness enveloped me as I thought, “nothing really needs to happen at this time! All I need to do is just be and be tender to myself.”

It is when I get out of my way and in stillness, I can listen to my own soul and say, “I love you!”

And that’s very precious!